
The Soulworker
A nurse is a soulworker. The mending of
the body is only a fraction of what she
accomplishes each day. With her compassion,
kindness, and specialized skills she encourages and
inspires those she works with. Through her caring,
courage and everyday heroism, the act of nursing
becomes a life’s work. The nurse is transformed
into a vehicle of healing. She is a soulworker.
Micheline Montgomery PhD
September 2002
I had an incredibly emotional and difficult time at work on Friday evening...the second night of work that I have ever cried in front of my colleagues. I cried twice last night at work in fact, and fought tears the rest of my night at home. I am often asked how I cope with working with sick children, and my only answer is that God has prepared my heart in advance to serve these families in the capacity he has enabled me to. I feel privileged, honored, and blessed to have the opportunity to show the same love and compassion that my Father has shown me to families of different cultures, languages, and religions. Whatever economic, situational, or physical characteristics seem to define these children and their families, the God of our Lord Jesus Christ looks beyond to see the heart. I am thankful that he has called me to serve them with kindness and love as I too reach beyond what is on the outside to help the hurting, sick, or disabled child and the family that provides unconditional love to that child outside the hospital.
So here is a list of reasons why I love working as a nurse at Children's Hospital:
I see bedridden children sit up with joy at the sight of a therapy dog
I see exhausted fathers return to their teenager's room with McDonalds at 2:00 am
I see new mothers tearfully express thanks when I enter their room with hot tea, as they await the doctors news from the most recent labs drawn from their newborn.
I see teenagers who have battled cystic fibrosis together for years, chatting on their hospital phones while they play Monopoly from separate hospital rooms
I see foster parents dressing their child's wounds day after day with the utmost care and affection, for they were called to care for a child who's skin fails to heal
I see the 3 year old in severe pain call out for "more bubbles" as I fill their room with little floating balls of joy.
I see new fathers anxiously attempt to change the first diaper of their little boy as I stand nearby coaching with words of encouragement.
I see excited toddlers stand in their "bubble-top" cribs playing peek-a-boo with me as I stand outside their room, knowing that when I enter I have to "gown up" and put on a mask making it impossible for them to truly trust me, a faceless stranger.
I am a sticker queen for the school girls
I am a warm arm for the babies without parents alone in their room at 4 am
I am an ear to anxious teenagers, missing the most important dance at school
I am encouragement to the mother learning how to give insulin injections to her 2 year old, newly-diagnosed, diabetic son
I am respite for the parents who have spent hours trying to calm their agitated daughter who has cerebral palsy
I am the lady who pulls the wagon for the preschooler needing to go on a "walk" around the unit late at night
I teach, encourage, support, learn, cope, laugh, plan, lead, listen, hold, blow bubbles, cry, and everything else that is required of a nurse
besides giving meds, continuously assessing, calling doctors, and endless charting.
Nursing is not who I am, it is not where I find my identity, it is not what I do. God has called me to nursing, not solely as a profession, but as a call to service. I learn about my heart, and it's sinful and fruitful responses, through this calling. I learn more about others: the strength that Gods gives a family to endure, the love that connects a child with his or her family, and what it means to work with a team on a common purpose to promote the physical and emotional well-being of a child.
I am truly thankful that God has placed me at Seattle's Children's Hospital for the past 2 1/2 years. I pray he will keep me there longer, whatever his will may be. I am thankful for my husband who has supported me the past 8 years, through high school and college, to discover and answer this call that the Lord had for me. I am thankful that God (and my husband) continue to give me the opportunity to work as a nurse part-time, and for my family who supports me by watching Josie when I need to sleep during the day. I continue to pray for emotional and physical strength as I experience more difficult situations at work. I pray for the ability to rest easily when I come home and to give up my worries about patients through prayer. Lastly, I pray for those children who are struggling as I type, for their families, and for the many people who care for them tonight who may also be fighting back the same tears I have shed.